okay, so it is not everyday that i get this emotionally into a song. But this specific song really grabbed at my heart and mind. it is "count on me" by Bruno Mars. I like to think of myself as having a good taste in music. Although i am not a huge fan of pop or radio overplayed songs. i believe this song has a little bit for everyone. this is what it means to me, and how i interpret it.
in the beginning of the song "if you ever find yourself lost in the middle of the see, i'll sail the world, to find you"
this is a general statement to everyone in my life that i hold dear. I believe anyone who knows me will and does understand that i will do anything i can for them, 2nd verse "if you ever find yourself in the dark and you can't see, I'll be the light, to guide you" this is another general statement, explaining that i am dependable, and a natural leader for when you need it most. i will do everything i can to provide you with whatever you need. next verse "find out what we're made of, when we are called to help our friends in need. you can count on me like 1..2..3.. i'll be there, and i know when i need it i can count on you like 4..3..2.. And you'll be there, cause that's what friends are sposed to do, ah yeah" this really hits home with the fact that "you" are reliable, helpful, and consistent, like numbers. 2 is always after 1 and 3 is always after 2. it will never fail. and i will never let you down, as you will never let me down, not only at the friend level, but husband, father, friend, brother, dad. this song really hit home in ways i never knew existed. as in the next verse
"if you're tossin and you're turnin' and you just can't fall sleep, i'll sing a song, beside you" this hit a new chord as i have recently become a father. the love i have for my daughter is unmatched by anything i have ever felt. the closest thing i can compare it to is the love i have for my wife. and even though they are both immeasurable, and incomparable, they are relatively close in importance in my life. and not only does this reference my love for my daughter, but also my wife, if she can't sleep i will comfort her with whatever she needs, or if my friends or family need anything they can call me and i will "sing" to them in whatever way i can to help them "sleep"
the next verse really hits on all aspects of what make me happy, and who i care about in my life. "and if you ever forget how much you really mean to me, everyday i will, remind you" i strive to tell my wife, daughter, and family how much they mean to mean, as often as possible. and coming from a family where feelings aren't frequently shared. i hope that this isn't too scarce. i try to tell my daughter everyday that she means the world to me. i also try to tell my wife that i love her everyday. and i wish that everyone could feel the love and pride i have for and towards my family, both immediate and distant. i also have been trying to reconnect with members of the family that are not as closely knit as i would like. do to geographic reasons, and different lifestyles, and communication breakdowns.
"find out what we're made of, when we are called to help our friends in need. you can count on me like 1..2..3.. i'll be there, and i know when i need it i can count on you like 4..3..2.. And you'll be there, cause that's what friends are sposed to do, ah yeah" just the chorus again but added a little depth to it with the family thing, and here comes the kicker.
"you'll always have my shoulder when you cry, i'll never let go, never say good bye" this really refers to everything, and everyone across the board. from holding my baby in my arms while she cries, to lending my shoulder to my wife in hard times, to always being there for my brothers when they need a "shoulder" to being a safe haven for my friends when they need confidence, to offering my family anything i have to help. and the fact that i will never "let go" or "say goodbye" by never turning my back, or disregarding anyhting you say , and always providing what my wife and daughter need while striving to make them happy. "you can count on me, like 1..2..3.. and i'll be there"
As a son, brother, husband, father, friend, and from the bottom of my heart.
I love you, and "I'll be there, and I know when I need it I can count on you"
